Hibernation

After moving back in with my parents and getting a job where I felt completely inadequate, I sorta fell into this weird hibernation/slump thingie. It's like I had NO ENERGY. EVER. AT ALL.

After dragging myself along at work, I would come home, lock myself in my house, turn off my phone, and zone out / nap. 

Other people just sucked more energy out of me, so I avoided them at all costs. 

At work I was a zombie, I would just do my job, and then go home.

I know it sounds mean, but listening to people talk really affected me in a bad way. I had the same problem with music. The peppy, high-energy songs that I used to love now zapped what little energy I had. I had to listen to more mellow songs. Not sad songs, but less energetic ones.

EEEEUGH. 

I didn't think it was depression, because I've seen Cymbalta commercials, and I wasn't like that poor complainy soul on the commercial who was sad all the time.

I was not sad. Not really super happy, but not sad. The biggest thing they drill into your head during that commercial is "depression hurts". So that was what I was looking for. Hurt. And since I was feeling no pain, then clearly I wasn't depressed right? Just very very tired.

I certainly didn't have enough energy to think about the important things in life.

As you can probably guess, my lunch breaks were spent in my car, away from everyone, napping.

Then one day, I sorta just woke up.

"you mean she actually has a personality?"

And so I went back home to do my normal hibernating thing. As I was laying there, I realized I was not really that tired. ...What??

So I just sat there with my thoughts. And I was like "Huh. Has it really been like... two years since I've gone outside, or interacted with other human beings of my own free will???"

"I should go talk to people. And do stuff."

"But what people? And what stuff...??"

"How"

"Where do I start"

It seemed that while I was hibernating most of my friends moved away. I must have slept through it all.

But now I'm at that awkward stage. Because I haven't used my social muscles in so long, it turns out I have no social skills. Beyond poking needles into people. 

Does this ever happen to anyone else?

So for now I'm just bored.